I am soon to be starting college in the fall; finally; i have no idea where life is going to have me end up in the next few months...So many descisions to make, so many responsibilities to tend to...i guess im just here for the ride til then.



Monday, September 13, 2010

forever wishful...

Its been a long time since ive posted anything, mostly because ive been overwhelmed by life and no matter what i take care of something else comes up. But every now and then things change for the better and you get a breath of fresh hair( even if only for a little while ). YAY...i am officially employed at a cute little retail shop called 'White house and black market'.

Oh how nice it would be to be able to do anything without my dear dear boyfriend nagging me....Lol im being summoned( and he made popcorn).

Thursday, August 12, 2010

"Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song.-

-At the touch of a lover everyone becomes a poet." "Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything"
The Victorian Surrealism of Jeffrey Micheal Harp The Hanged Man by Jeffrey Micheal Harp

"The Fool settles beneath a tree, intent on finding his spiritual self. There he stays for nine days, without eating, barely moving. People pass by him, animals, clouds, the wind, the rain, the stars, sun and moon. On the ninth day, with no conscious thought of why, he climbs a branch and dangles upside down like a child, giving up for a moment, all that he is, wants, knows or cares about. Coins fall from his pockets and as he gazes down on them - seeing them not as money but only as round bits of metal - everything suddenly changes perspective. It is as if he's hanging between the mundane world and the spiritual world, able to see both. It is a dazzling moment, dreamlike yet crystal clear. Connections he never understood before are made, mysteries are revealed. But timeless as this moment of clarity seems, he realizes that it will not last. Very soon, he must right himself, and when he does, things will be different. He will have to act on what he's learned. For now, however, he just hangs, weightless as if underwater, observing, absorbing, seeing."

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

RUN...ITS A CAR SALESMAN!!!!!

As a result in my little sister totaling the only family car, we resort to using my car and a car loaned to us by local friends; of whom happen to be the senator of MO and his wife. You wouldnt believe the quizzical looks we get from people when they realise its not the senator inside the car; as if we stole it or something else proposterous...But i digress...It has truly been a blessing being able to use the vehicle, and on the up side we may have found my mothers 'dream car'(so to speak, more so her dream color, blue). As it turns out it is interesting going car shopping with my family. The key is to drive through every car lot you see, but DONT get out of the car and DONT stop to speak to the sales man running after you, just drive away as fast as you can. I mean sheesh i knew these car salesmen want their sales, but i dont find it necessary to make a bee-line to every car entering the lot and chase them around. HINT: If someone doesnt bother to get out of the car and it seems they drive off every time you get in closer proximity, leave them be...they dont want to talk to you!!! Oh what a strange world we live in, where everyone gets attacked by mad car salesmen.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

choices of consequence?

It is interesting how often things change, whether it be circumstances, options, people; nothing is ever easy and simple. But i guess thats the point. What would life experiences be without having to make choices; choices that dictate what your next few steps in life will be. It could be benificial or result in a detremental consequence. I of all people am not one to accept all the different sides of a situation. I see the positive and the negative, but seldom do i descide with anything but my heart. Rarely is this a good trait, and more often than not it is one that causes great problems.

Monday, August 9, 2010

O, what a tangled web we weave when first we practise to deceive! -Sir Walter Scott-



To all, to each, a fair good-night, and pleasing dreams, and slumbers light. -Sir Walter Scott-

Sunday, July 25, 2010

The truth does not change according to our ability to stomach it. -Flannery O'Connor